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January 2nd, 2006
03:46 pm
So here's the scoop. Went out with Elliott for a bit.. that was nice while it lasted. then things just got...wrong. so we mutually broke that off.. and i was almost instantly picked back up by Derrick. and him and i had our first real big fight like 2 nights ago. It was intense...but i think.. i donno. i dont think i'll be going out with him for long. i think i wanna be single.. Not that i dont love being in a relationship.. but.. i know im not good at it. and i dont know all the 'rules' of dating, and im sure i broke a lot of them. so. i'm just going to..not. and just have fun for a while...
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November 15th, 2005
12:28 pm
Went through all the drama of breaking it off with Derrick.
and he was pissed for a bit. now we just dont talk.
Now im going out with elliott A.
and i've never been happier.
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November 3rd, 2005
12:08 am
Derrick is such a fag.
I'm so hot and cold for this kid.
i've come to the conclusion that i love him to death while he's at home.. but when he goes off to college, i just get pissed at him and begin to hate him.
im just tired of his shit.
i think i may start looking for another interest that goes to college like...here.
This kid Brad in my English class is pressed. he keeps asking me to hang out with him on the weekends.. and he walks me to my car after classes. SO meh.
Then there's matt.
He has such a super smile..
and he smokes a lotta herb.
which works for me.
and he quit all the other drugs he used to do..
coke, meth.. all those really...really bad ones.
and now he's just a stoner and an alcy.
my kinda people.
but meh. we'll see how it all progresses.
i just want Derrick to snap outta this imature rut he's in.
he's being really gay.
and im not gonna deal with it for much longer.
im putting my foot down.
~Whitey
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October 27th, 2005
11:06 am - love
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one...
Well, I'm ready
I am ready to run away
With you
Are you ready
To run away
With me?
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call eachother our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It would be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a
Goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands
cupping your cherub face
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October 23rd, 2005
10:42 pm
He said he missed me while he was away at school.
He said he loves me.
He said he loves my hands.
He said he loves my lips.
i love everything about him.
How nerdy is that?
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October 5th, 2005
01:25 am
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me
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September 18th, 2005
10:43 am
*Firsts*
1. First best friend: Prolly, lil sam in Jersey...
2. First car: the regalllllllllllll...its so hawt.
3. First real kiss: is it bad that i dont remember?
4. First screen name: unicrown87...like. i dont know.
5. First self purchased album: Cranberrrrries
6. First funeral: my one and only... for my grandpa
7. First pet: Blackie
8. First piercing/tattoos: ears pierced like when i was 13 or so
9. First Credit Card: i wish i had a credit card..
10. First enemy: i didnt really get enemies til i was a lot older.. like.. Nora. haha.
11. First big trip: Wyoming.. in a car. with 4 other people. driving from chicago. that sucked so many nuts.
12. First music you remember hearing in your house: my brothers band..
*LASTS*
1. Last cigarette: 20 minutes ago.
2. Last car ride: driving home from derricks.
3. Last kiss: Derrick..
4. Last good cry: like.. during rave house. when i flipped out and broke down. then got drunk and all better.
5. Last library book checked out: yo..i havent checked a book out since like elementary school
6. Last food consumed: breakfast. eggs, toast, hashbrowns..holllla
7. Last crush: Derrick.
8. Last phone call: Derrick last night to tell me to come overrrr
9. Last time showered: 30 minutes ago..
10. Last shoes worn: MY SUPER AWESOME PIMPTASTIC SLIPPER SHOES!
11. Last item bought: said shoes, and a cute cherry wallet.
12. Last time wanting to die: dying's no funnnn
13. Last time scolded: i dont get scolded. i get bitched at.
14. Who are your best friends: Jennifer, rotter, derrick, james.
15. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: i dont even know..
*SPECIFICS*
1. Do you do drugs: yea.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: i dont know. but it smells good, and makes my hair silky.
3. What are you most scared of: someone throwing a hundered half dead glowsticks at you in the pitch black and thinking you're being attacked. thats scary.
4. Do you want to get married: Someday...
5. What are you listening to right now: sublime
6. How many buddies are online: way too many to count.
7. What would you change about yourself: better shape... or less drugs. that'd be super.
*FAVORITES*
1. Colors: pinkkkk
2. Foods: taco bell.
3. Girl names: not a real big fan of girl names
4. Boys names: John, Derrick, Karl, Jeremiah
5. Subject in school: PE!! hollla
7. Sports: basketball
8. Perfume: Lucky You
9. Cologne: dude. i dont care. i love it when they're in the car with you. then they get out. and you can still smell them in your car. hawt.
*HAVE YOU EVER*
1. Given anyone a bath: no
2. Smoked: Yes.
3. Bungee jumped: No.
5. Skinny dipped: Yes.
6. Been in love: nope
7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: haha. im a nerd. yea
8. Pictured your crush naked: i dont have to picture that. i can SEE it. har har har.
9. Seen your crush naked: yeap
10. Cried when someone died: Yes.
11. Lied: Yes.
12. Fallen for your best friend: No..that'd be weird.
13. Been rejected: Oh yeah
14. Rejected someone: Yes
15. Used someone: havent we all though?
16. Done something you regret: no. i figure. you only live once. and you cant live it up if you keep thinking about the past.
* CURRENT*
1. Clothes: tank top and jeans.
2. Music: none
3. Make-up: none
4. Annoyance: i have to sit weird cuz my belly button is sensitive..so im all leaned back really far from the computer.
5. Smell: my hair from the awesome cool shampoo
6. Favorite artist: i dont really have favorites.
7. Desktop picture: trails from a dude raving. hawt.
8. You're reading: nothing?
*ARE YOU*
1. Understanding: sometimes. but most of the time. no.
2. Open-minded: Yeah.
3. Arrogant: i try not to be.
4. Insecure: so very so
5. Interesting: people tell me i am..
6. Hungry: No.
7. Smart: hells no. i think i wanna quit school.
8. Moody: all the flippin time.
9. Hardworking: depends on the work.
10. Organized: i have no sense of organization unless im at work
11. Healthy: not at all. which confuses me as to why im LOSING weight as i eat whatever is placed in front of me..
12. Shy: a lot
13. Attractive: he thinks so.
15. Responsible: um. no. im not the responsible one of the group.
16. Obsessed: obsessed with MY SUPER FABULOUS PIMPTASTIC SLIPPER SHOES!
17. Angry: i was until last night.
18. Sad: i was until last night.
19. Disappointed: i was until last night.
20. Happy: YES
21. Hyper: not at all. im so tiredddd
22. Trusting: meh
23. Talkative: i can be at times
*WHO DO YOU WANNA*
1. Kill: increase the peace
2. Slap: jim
3. Get high with: um. derrick. but he has piss tests now. so no fun.
4. Look like: um. me but pretty.
5. Talk to offline: joe steve.
6. Talk to online: the whole worlddddddddddd
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September 12th, 2005
02:06 pm
hey bitches.
my birthday is tomorrow.
call me and show me some loooove.
980 8926. HOLLLLER
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September 9th, 2005
10:41 am
i went to an NA meeting last night.
narcotics anonymous.
never thought i would ever land myself into that situation.
but im glad i went.
when i first got there, i felt like i didnt belong.
among crackheads, cokeheads and herion addicts.
but then they all talked about how they all started off on pot.
and when that just didnt do it anymore..they had to move up.
They also made me feel really comfortable there,
they said it would be some work, but when i was off it, i would feel so much better.
i want to get off it.
and i think it will be a lot of work.
and i dont know if im ready for all that.
i believe i've lost something about myself, and i really want that part back.
the really happy.
all the time.
when i used to get in fights with my parents, and actually talk.
now i only scream, and drive off.
i want to be back to normalcy.
To be able to have fun, without being high.
im afraid.
i cant even remember what its like to be not high for a long period of time.
and i dont know how well i'll be able to adapt back to that.
but i am willing to give it a try.
so if im a bitch to you, or i totally snap.
dont take any offense to it.
i'll just say sorry now, in advance.
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July 17th, 2005
June 28th, 2005
09:45 am
i grajiated.
went to an after party.
my found out.
got my car taken away.
and by take away i mean..
then took out the battery, deflated a tire, and took my license plates.
crazy?
i think yes.
but they wont believe me when i tell them that..
then i got kicked out to top it all off.
hah.
came back.
they wont to NC.
had lots of drunken parties.
derrick didnt come cuz he's gay.
and he had to stay with his dad and brother all weekend.
parents are back now.
jim's working on putting all my car back together.
i have to get a new phone...cuz i dropped mine.
and now i have a big black line through the screen.
GAY.
but whatever.
it was about time for a new phone anyway.
yay.
oh.
and i picked up rolls last night.
and the guy said they were intense body rolls.
and thats what sold me on them.
so i bought 4.
they're yellow.
i've only had one yellow one ever.
and it was pretty good.
so we'll see whats up.
hollllllller.
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June 12th, 2005
07:33 pm
prom was amazing.
so was pretty much the whole day.
from getting my hair did.
to getting my nails done.
i love getting dressed up.
dinner was cool too.
if we hadnt of gotten lost on the way there.
it woulda been better.
but whatev.
still awesome.
we didnt get to the dance til almost 11..
cuz we were searching for a cheap hotel.
we didnt find one.
but we still settled on the holiday inn.
mm. classy.
the dance was really cool.
and by cool...i mean it was 1800 degrees in there.
it was cool.
cuz i talked to people...that i never would have talked to otherwise.
everyone was just so pretty and friendly.
they only played one electronica song..
but lemme tell ya..
i was right up in there dancing with glowsticks.
raver pride right there buddy.
we left prom at like 12:45.
we got to the hotel at like 1:15..
and everyone started showing up shortly there after.
matt, andy, alex and dan came.
and they brought the damn party.
they're so entertaining.
i played slaphands with matt for like an hour.
and lou got really pissed.
then matt and i went out in the hall and he was like
'you look hot tonight' and it was cute.
awhh.
i got really sloshed.
but hey..how often do you get to party it up in a hotel after prom, eh?
once if you're normal.
lol.
Lou kept trying to be weird.
and no..i did not give him any POON.
geez.
but thats not saying he didnt try to get it..
i simply said no.
and i win.
i wanted derrick to come and chill with us..
but he was at his dad's house for his da's birthday..
so i guess thats ok.
as long as he wasnt off making out with some girl.
cuz that would piss me off..lol
yay.
i have lots of pics...i'll post them later.
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June 11th, 2005
10:07 am
Prom is tonight.
and whether or not lou shows..
its still gonna rock all.
now if i could just get a hold of morgan...
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June 4th, 2005
10:56 am
ima get him arressssssssted.
yay cops.
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May 31st, 2005
08:17 am
Woke up quick at about noon
Just thought that I had to be in Compton soon
I gotta get drunk before the day begins
Before my mother starts bitchin' about my friends
About to go and damn near went blind
Young niggaz on the pad throwin' up gang signs
I went in the house to get the clip
With my Mac10 on the side of my hip
I bailed outside and pointed my weapon
Just as I thought, the fools kept steppin
I jumped in the fo' hit the juice on my ride
I got front and back side to side
Then I let the alpine play
I was pumpin' new shit by NWA
It was "Gangster Gangster" at the top of the list
Then I played my own shit, it went somethin' like this:
Cruisin' down the street in my 6-fo'
Jockin' the bitches, slappin' the hoe's
I went to the park to get the scoop
Knuckle-heads out there cold shootin' some hoop
A car pulls up, who can it be?
The fresh El Camino rollin Kilo G
He rolls down the window and he starts to say
It's all about makin' that G.T.A.
Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...
Bored as hell and I wanna get ill
So I go to a place where my homeboyz chill
The fellas out there try to make that dollar
I pulled up in the 6-fo' Impala
greeted with a 40 and I start drinkin'
And from the 8-ball my breath start stinkin'
I gotta get my girl to rock that body
Before I left I hit the bacardi
Pulled to the house get her out of the pad
And the bitch said something to make me mad
She said somethin' that I couldn't believe
So I grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy ass weave
She started talkin' shit, would'nt you know?
I reached back like a pimp and slapped the hoe'
And her father stood up and he started to shout
So I threw a right-cross and knocked his old ass out
Cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit'
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ...
Punk ass trippin in the dead of night
homies score and key is gonna fly, punk ass fly
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07:44 am
D is staying til september.
thats yay.
cuz he'll be here to go with me when i get my tattoo in september on my b-day.
yay.
im almost sure wolfie and free-head....i mean diane.. keyed my car.
and i'll find a way to catch them saying shit.
so i can put them in jail.
yay jail.
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May 30th, 2005
01:21 am
drunk as hell and i wanna get ill. so i go to the place where all my homeboys chill...
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May 25th, 2005
09:22 pm
So. for any of you that have spoken to me in the past few days.
you'll know im extremely angry.
and to add to it all..
i lose my car tomorrow for 2 weeks while it goes to the shop to get repainted.
the cost of it all?
out of my pocket...500.
but for the whole paintjob and work on the scratches?
over 2300 bucks.
cuz they have to sand it all out.
and do work on the metal where they scratched it away.
so.
if i ever find out who did it.
i'll make sure they go to jail for the full 3-5.
cuz they fucking deserve it.
what do i get for trying to be nice to fucking people.
a fucking hassle.
and i better have my car back for prom.
cuz if i dont..
thats another thing im gonna be bitter towards the person for.
you dont want to see whitey angry.
but you've done it.
if whoever did this wanted to hit me where it hurts.
they've done it.
they got me right in the fucking heart.
and they will pay.
and in a really..really painful one.
'i wish i could take the pain away that you're feeling right now. you dont deserve this to happen to something you love so much.' ~my mom..
i love my mom.
she's the best lady.
i hope whoever fucked with my car...gets run over. but i dont want them to die..
i want them to be crippled for the rest of thier lives.
(mind you i still want them to serve thier sentance)
and i want to sue them.
for all they're fucking worth.
which prolly wont be much.
cuz it was prolly a nigger. or a fucking fag with aids.
whateva.
we shall see.
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May 20th, 2005
11:19 am
Last night...
got off work at 9:30.
rolled up to SR and chilled with my bro and Andy.
Then rolled back up to C'ville.
Went over to Derricks house.
enjoyed some nice 151...
and my god does that stuff burn on the way down.
its awesome.
i enjoyed every second of it.
and he said 'so, you're going to prom with Lou huh?'
and he had this... look on his face.
then i said 'yea, but i'd rather go with you.'
and he said 'i would, but i really...really dont like Westfield. like, im not gonna go'
but ya know,
im pretty sure i'll be able to talk him into going.
cuz uh... i would..really much rather go with Der instead of Lou.
cuz i talked to Lou last night too.
and he was talking like he was trying to impress me.
saying 'yea, i smoked so much cheeba'
and all that kinda bull shit..
and it was dumb.
so i told him i had to go and hung up.
cuz he said he's not gonna be coming down here til the day before Prom.
and thats gay.
gay gay gay.
ok.
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May 17th, 2005
06:04 pm
http://www.laweekly.com/ink/04/23/features-davis.php
read it.
maybe then you'll see my side of 2-CI.
it can make you go crazy.
and people do stupid shit when their crazy.
but dont mind me..
im just trying to look out.
but you didnt listen to me about that coke.
and not this.
friends are supposed to listen to each others advice.
so that makes us not friends.
cuz you're head is too damn big and you think you know everything about everything.
but you dont.
but whatever.
im through with you.
i hope you fucking OD on some lame ass drug.
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